Friday, March 31, 2006

Alone

Fear solitude... it shows you who you are,
which is something only a very few people can survive.
I am alone.
I have been so before.
Am I lonely?
Yes... but only when I am with other people.
Sometimes it makes me feel like I've given up on the human race.

As Bukowski explained it:
-----------
NOTICE

citizens of the world
I renounce you.

I have
long ago.
but this is a formal
notice.
me against
you.
a restraining
order.

fuck off.
dry up.
vanish.

don't come to
my door
with pizza
pussy
or offers of
peace.

it's too late.

the music has
frozen in the
air
castrated by the
absence of your
presence.
-----------------

The only quality I really admire anymore is courage.
Courage to be emotionally and intellectually honest.
Courage to brave the solitude
and truly face the self.
If you can do so and still crack a joke,
you are alright in my book.

14 Comments:

Blogger Krystalline Apostate said...

If you can do so and still crack a joke
So a rabbi, a priest and an imam walk into a bar, and the barkeep says: "What is this, a joke?"
Yes... but only when I am with other people.
An interesting statement.
Wonderful post, my friend

Saturday, April 01, 2006 4:35:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Michael
I had never read Bukowski.
Now I begin to understand his influence on you.
I'll have to check him out further.
What caused him to hurt so?

I love the wording of his last stanza-if it can be called a stanza. It's very powerful and evocative.

My fortune cookie tonight said "You see pictures in poems and poems in pictures."
That doesn't apply to everyone. I'll bet it does to you.

karen

Saturday, April 01, 2006 6:45:00 AM  
Blogger Krystalline Apostate said...

karen:
According to the documentary, his father whopped him w/a razor strop every day in his childhood, whilst his German mother told him, "You're father's always right."

Sunday, April 02, 2006 10:41:00 PM  
Blogger HairlessMonkeyDK said...

Reluctant... yes. Try reading his autobiography "Ham on rye".
It covers his first twenty years
and is one hell of a story.

Monday, April 03, 2006 6:30:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hairless
I've been looking at his artwork on the site you have listed. Have you checked it out?
Wanna play Do you like what I like?

k.

Monday, April 03, 2006 9:16:00 PM  
Blogger HairlessMonkeyDK said...

Karen... sure.
But actually I -HADN'T-
looked at his drawings
in the gallery section.
I've been too caught up in his words to really notice.
I did, however, cursorily view a few of his paintings...
And I agree with your assesment.
They may be -primitive-, but that is usually made up for by a raw, vital immediacy.
Sure, some of 'em may be useless,
but a lot of 'em show
more gut-level-passion
than you'd ever find in a selfsatisfied museum.
It's the same with his poetry, really...
Most of it is very primitive,
and sometimes he hits the vulgar note once too often for effect,
but, on average, he's 97% correct.
Which is a REAL NICE average.
Uhmmm...
You go first, Karen.
What picture caught your eye?

Monday, April 03, 2006 10:54:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Michael,
I haven't looked at them all either, maybe a 15 or so. A couple have caught my eye. This, I think is my favorite.
(I reserve the right to change my mind as I continue to peruse.)
I'll wait to tell you the other to see if you pick it.

2nd row from bottom, 4th picture from left

I call it a walking bird.
There's a similar one facing the opposite direction on row 5, 2. But this one's better.
k.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006 3:47:00 AM  
Blogger PastaLaVista said...

Very interesting that Bukowski. I too was not familiar with him. I can certainly identify with what he has to say here. I will definitely have to check out some of his works in the future. Thanks for turning me on to him Hairless. Do people even use the "turn me on" phrase anymore? Obviously I still do. I'm kinda feeling a little Jim Morrisony today. Must be the Tequila.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006 5:41:00 AM  
Blogger udonman said...

great post hairless gonna hafta to hit the bookstore and pick up some of his work

Tuesday, April 04, 2006 10:00:00 AM  
Blogger HairlessMonkeyDK said...

Just so you know,
there's a new movie out
based on Bukowski's novel
"Factotum".

Saturday, April 08, 2006 1:27:00 AM  
Blogger PastaLaVista said...

According to the net this film is already out on DVD (3 APR 06). I watched the trailer and it said in theatres 18 Nov I think it was. It didn't say what year. I'm assuming Nov 2005. Did this movie only play in the UK and Ireland? Don't recall seeing any advertisement for it in the States. It's produced by Icon films. None other than Matt Dillon is the leading man.

Monday, April 10, 2006 3:24:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hairless
I guess you don't want to play the art game?
k.

Monday, April 10, 2006 6:23:00 PM  
Blogger HairlessMonkeyDK said...

Karen...
Well, I'll tell you that I also picked that bird-like creature...
plus another one that's sort of it's opposite... still vaguely bird-like, but it makes me think more of Cthulhu.
It's 5th row, second picture.
There's something menacing about that staring eye and the slope of the beak? Tentacle? Jaw?,
that creeps me out if I stare at it for a while.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006 10:44:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Maybe the one on the last row is the "before" picture. And the one at 5,2 is "after." Before, in daylight, bright colors, sun shining. After, in darkness, shoulders droopy, the menacing look, the red "blood" on the beak from "after" the kill. Hah!
I also like the last one on the right on the 4th row from the bottom. Looks like a man w/ a DNA strand and a tree.
k

Wednesday, April 12, 2006 11:47:00 PM  

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